Tirade Tuesday: Shipping Bellarke Apparently Makes Me White

I tend to stay out of ship wars most of the time because it’s often a case of a lot of talking, and no one listening. I’ve been around The 100 fandom so long that even if a healthy discussion takes place, I know that in just a week or two the same issues would be brought up and it would be like nothing’s changed. That’s the nature of Tumblr, and you can say I’m resigned to it.

But recently I saw a post on my dashboard that disturbed me. It asked Bellarke fans to examine their privilege, and in particular, our white privilege. The premise was that Bellarke was a racist ship and that if you shipped it, you were racist. In the same way, it also implied that if you didn’t ship Braven, you were racist.

These are serious implications that are not to be taken lightly. Race is an important issue, and by all means one should examine their white privilege. But here’s the problem – I’m Chinese. One of the many people of color who ship Bellarke. Apparently, I’m not the only one who has seen such posts. Sections of the Braven fandom have also called POCs white feminists. It’s callous and it’s a sweeping generalization that lessens the credibility of the person using the term.

On a level, I get it. I don’t think that the writer really believed that all Bellarke fans are white. I also understand how people may sometimes use assumptions and sweeping statements to strengthen an argument. Throughout The 100 fandom I have also seen people pull out social justice issues to try to strengthen a case. I have seen people reveal their sexual identities, race, and personal histories to make a point.

However, in not acknowledging that the Bellarke fandom is incredibly diverse, and by erasing our identities as people of color by generalising us, it makes it difficult for me to believe that such people care all that much about the racial issues they supposedly champion.

In fact, such posts are potentially hurtful, because you never know who may be reading it. The person you asked to examine their white privilege has perhaps been trying to be white all their lives because of the difficulties of being a POC.

Discussions of race can always be grounded in the context of the show. In discussing ships, the option to form an argument solely on canon is always there. In fact, by sticking to facts on the show instead of trying (pretending) to be a champion of social justice, you may just end up having a much more fruitful discussion. Try it.

Tirade Tuesday: Celebrating The 100

My dash and my blog have been filled with this terrible vile ship war that’s been going on, and I’m tired of seeing people focus on the negatives on a show that has so many amazing points. I’m going to acknowledge up front that the show does have aspects that it needs to improve on and other people have explained that a lot better than I can especially considering I’m white and I can’t speak for the POC community. I would also like to point out that this show is created, acted and written by humans and people are naturally flawed and make mistakes, and we need to be given a chance to learn and fix those mistakes.

Now onto the greatness of this show…

 

Behind the scenes/the people that make the show:

  • The cast: The 100 cast clearly gets along, as shown by their interactions at the panels and interviews and photos. The actors also clearly understand their characters and there have been so many times when Bob in particular talks about Bellamy that my theories and headcanons are validated, and it’s amazing to see. The research that Lindsay has done on addressing Raven’s disability is incredible. The way they support causes – the support of the 100 charity project, Bob’s shirt for mental illness, Devon’s support of children and support of the trevor project, it’s inspiring to see people you respect and look up making a difference in the world.

 

  • The Music: The CW always has great music for all of their shows but the 100 knocks it out of the park. From the brilliance of the ending song of s2 finale “Knocking on Heaven’s Door” to “Remains” at the end of 3×08, the music elevates the show and the tone perfectly. Tree Adams has also written amazing pieces for the show including the “Grounder Anthem”  song which was hauntingly beautiful and reminded me so much of ancient Rome, where power was everything and death could come at any time. The fact that in episode 3×14 they ended the show with an acoustic cover of “Radioactive”, driving home for the viewer the horrors we have seen them all go through and just how many of them have died, truly allowing us to appreciate that the Delinquents arrival on the ground heralded a New Age that has only just begun. For many shows, the songs they play hold meaning but often weeks, months later, that meaning has been lost after you’ve listened to it a hundred times, but for the 100, I cannot listen to any of the songs played without thinking of the show.

 

  • The Writing Team: Yes they’ve done some crappy stuff and Yes, some of them need to stop interfering with the fandom and go on Twitter less, but they love the show. I love that JR livetweets with us, because he also gives us questions and new tidbits of information about filming. The writers are also listening to us: we asked for more Monty and Miller and Harper and they’ve given that to us, we said that one LGBT character wasn’t enough and they gave us Miller and Bryan and Niylah and Clarke and Lexa, we complained about the actor who played Wick and he wasn’t there in season 3. They could just ignore our requests and say “oh fans don’t know the show the way the writers do” but they are listening to us and that’s important to remember. The writers are trying to increase the diversity and that makes it easier to criticize because it exists in show. The writers have also made so many literary allusions with last season being a combination of the Iliad and Dante’s Inferno while this season alludes to the Matrix, the Biblical Exodus Story and the Odyssey.

The show itself:

  • The unpredictability of the show, it constantly keeps the viewers guessing. It goes to places that I don’t expect it to go and just when you think it’s going to get lighter, it shifts and reveals something truly dark. That’s why the MW storyline was so good was because just when you thought it couldn’t get any darker it did. Many of us thought that they’d save Finn, that Tondc wouldn’t be destroyed but the show doesn’t give us any easy way out.

 

  • Raven Reyes:  Raven is a badass, she is one of the most badass characters on television and she always has been from the moment she used a century old ship that she fixed up herself to get to Earth because Finn is all she has to fighting against Allie. Her disability does not impact her ability to fight, to create and to love. She truly is the modern day Hephaestus. Natalie talked about how amazing Raven’s storyline is from the perspective of a person with chronic pain here, and it’s an awesome post which everyone should read. As someone with a disability, I have never seen someone on TV break and struggle and fall and get back up the way Raven does and it’s incredible to see. It makes me cry to see how much Raven struggles and how much she tries because that is my everyday reality. Raven Reyes will forever be the character I look to when I feel like giving up because she inspires me in so many ways. Raven also loves fiercely and reckless, I mean this a girl who went way beyond for her boyfriend/only family and crash landed on earth. She also didn’t hold Clarke’s actions against her and the friendship between them is one of my favorite things.

 

  • Abby Griffin: I got be honest, I watch this show with my mom and one of the most amazing things has come out of watching the show is that my relationship with my mom has improved. In many TV shows the parents are either nonexistent, just parents or have superficial characterization. With Abby Griffin, The 100 gives us a mother who will do anything for a daughter, a woman whose entire job is about healing but is in situations where healing is so hard. Abby Griffin sacrifices unlike any character on TV, but she also incredibly selfish  with and protective of those she loves. Abby will do anything for her daughter, but she’s also shown to be willing to do something that could hurt her when it will save humanity. She’s a doctor, a healer and a leader, but most importantly, she’s a mother. I love her relationship with Raven and the constant checkups that appear throughout the seasons. Abby Griffin is not just a mother and that’s an important decision the writers made.

 

  • The Blake Siblings: Bellamy and Octavia have one of the most complicated honest siblings dynamics on TV. They are the only siblings on the show and that forces the characters around them to acknowledge. The two fight and they fall, but at the end of the day there’s nothing they wouldn’t do for each and as Bellamy says in 3×03 “You’ll always fit with me”. Bellamy basically raised Octavia and the past seasons have been about Bellamy letting Octavia have freedom, and Octavia learning that Bellamy isn’t perfect. Octavia and Bellamy have been arguing since they got to the ground and they find themselves now on moral opposites in terms of the grounders. I’m a twin, I fight with my brother all the damn time and do we agree on everything, fuck no we don’t. Granted The 100 is currently in a civil war so there is that. The Blakes will do anything for each other, but their interactions are often antagonistic, they know exactly how to hurt each and that’s true of all siblings. At the end of the day, what both of them want most is the other’s happiness.

 

  • The Moral Questions: The 100 forces us to question the world around us like no other show on television does. This is a world where Racism, Sexism and Homophobia do not exist, we get Lexa, a lesbian as the commander, Jaha as a Moses-like figure, Kane and Abby and Bellamy and Clarke as equal partners in leadership. But the show addresses Xenophobia, social change and how not to achieve it; it asks its’ viewers repeatedly what makes a good person? Are you even allowed to consider yourself one after what you do in the name of your people? What will you do to survive? In the first episode, Kane and Abby have an exchange that I believe is the theme of show where Kane says “I’ll will do what it takes to make sure our people survive” and Abby’s response is “And I’ll make sure we deserve to” which is such an important distinction. The Mount Weather storyline also asks these same questions with Dante and Cage while giving us Maya and those who lead the rebellion to help the Delinquents as an example of innocents that were killed in the name of survival. This show has also killed or broke the moral compasses of the show so the moral questions of the show are now left to the discussion of the fans, which is why the meta the fans create is so interesting and so in tune with the social issues of this time period. The show is filled with death and anger and pain, but it also has the themes of hope and love and forgiveness running through it. The way I believe they will defeat the CoL is through Love as love is clearly the glitch in the system. The show forces us to address and acknowledge the imperfections of the world around us in our time period and forces us to discuss those.

And there are so many more ways the show is amazing!!!

Judaism and the 100

So I was reading a meta by the brilliant Anne here about faith and how it influences the show, and I was thinking about how the 100 is influenced by Judaism and Jewish Values. I was also talking about how the 100 season 3 will end with the exodus of the delinquents, which I wrote about here with Cams.

Background info: I am Jewish, I went to Jewish School for nine years and currently go to a Catholic High School where I am senior. Jason Rothenberg, the creator and executive producer of the 100 is also Jewish.

Forgiveness and Repentance in the 100 and in Judaism

Forgiveness in both Christianity and Judaism is often unearned by the wrongdoer, it is something we do because humans are made in the image of God and thus are worthy of respect, understanding and dignity. This concept is shown multiple times in the 100 through both words and actions. Bellamy and Clarke say to each other “If you need forgiveness I’ll give that to you” in both 1×08 and 2×16 where the person hearing the words feels like a monster. In 3×13 Clarke tells Bellamy “I forgive you but the question is will you forgive yourself”. Another example is after Kane realizes that Culling was not actually needed and his mother, Vera tells him that “God will forgive you”. Kane and Abby forgive each other with actions after the shock lashing, Abby still trusts him later in the season. Clarke and Lexa also experience this where in 3×04, Clarke bandages Lexa’s hands after the fight with Roan, implicitly forgiving her.

Now it is the concept of repentance that differs between Jewish and Christian traditions. For many Christians the act of repentance is often as simple as giving money to the church or taking confession because they believe that Jesus died for their sins and thus they are absolved already, however there does have to be regret. Both Jewish and Christian Traditions require the person to regret their actions. In Jewish culture, repentance requires a change in behavior, it is a choice to reflect on your mistakes and try do better. This is the essence of repentance on the 100. Both Kane and Bellamy are forgiven for their wrongdoing but they only truly become heroes in the eyes of the viewer because they change their behavior, they only succeed in their respective redemptions arc because they actively become better people. Bellamy and Kane both work to create a better world, to protect their people, and in terms of Bellamy being less chaotic and in terms of Kane being less rigid. Yes, they do both fall back into their antagonistic roles at times but that is what the active choice of the idea of repentance is.

This is why the Lexa repentance/hero arc didn’t feel like it happened to me. Because Lexa would bow to Clarke and say “I vow to treat your people as my people” in 3×03 while forcing the Sky People to stay within a border and not allowing them to gain justice for the murder of several of their citizens when Mount Weather blew up. In the aftermath of the massacre, Lexa ordered a siege of Arkadia wherein they poisoned the river and created a kill order on all of the Sky People, despite Clarke wanting to convince Lexa otherwise. Her promises to Clarke fell short of influencing her actions, she never changed from wanting to subjugate and punish the Sky people. Pretty words are not repentance. She also implied that Clarke was right to blame herself for the action Lexa’s betrayal forced her to commit in 3×03, let me repeat: LEXA’S BETRAYAL CAUSED CLARKE, BELLAMY AND MONTY TO BECOME COMMITTERS OF GENOCIDE – SHE IS DIRECTLY RESPONSIBILITY FOR THAT OCCURRING AND SHE NEVER ONCE APOLOGIZES OR SEEMS TO CHANGE HER BEHAVIOR. This is exactly why I understand Clarke’s forgiveness because forgiveness is healing to the person giving it, but I don’t understand anyone calling Lexa a hero because she hadn’t changed. I do believe that the writers know that Lexa never actually had an onscreen apology/change in her actions, which is why they are bringing her back in the Finale, so instead of forcing Clarke to stay, she can tell Clarke to leave which would be a change.

The Mourning Prayers

Now the first time we hear the words May We Meet Again on the show are in the context of a mourning prayer, The Traveller’s Blessing, and despite the term being used a lot on the show, it is almost always as a goodbye or alternatively sometimes as a promise that they will see the person they are speaking to again, see Abby using it with Clarke in 2×14 and Bellamy and Clarke using it in 2×16 at the end before Clarke walks off. The mourning prayer/epitaph in Judaism is May Your Memory Be Blessing. Both have very similar wording and the incredibly similar of meaning of “I will keep you with me after you leave”, “You will not forgotten” and “I will act as you would want me to act”.

The Exodus Story

In the meta referenced above, Anne talks about how Allie is a false god, which as I was talking with Cams about our predictions for the season finale, I realized could possibly mean that season 3 is a parallel to the Exodus Story.

Because after the revelation of God as the true God, the Israelites are sent away in part because of the 10th plague, the death of the first born, which I believe will parallel the delinquents being exiled after Clarke destroys the City of Light in finale that results in the death of almost everyone in it. The death of firstborn is as tragic as the death that will occur in finale, and it will destroy Grounder society in the same it destroyed Egyptian society in the Bible that the delinquents, like the Jews, will have to be exiled. Also, The delinquents/Sky People were treated terribly by the grounders – the siege, the limits of where they could go, the fact that they couldn’t use Mount Weather despite it being theirs by conquest, the lack of trade with the other grounders, and that’s just season 3.  However just like the Jews, they never lost hope that someday they would find a place of belonging, but like the Jews, the remaining Sky People must go through a journey, they must go out and face trials and be tested and doubt in order for them to  truly find their promised land.

The reason I believe that Kane, Abby, Clarke and the delinquents that enter the City of Light in next few episodes will be saved is because when the Jews were told of the tenth plague, they placed Lamb’s blood above their doors to tell the angel of death to pass over. I believe that this action of the Lamb’s blood is paralleled with Kane and Abby, especially because they both entered the City of Light to spare the lives of other people that they love, Kane for Abby in 3×13 and Abby for Raven in 3×10.

Allie and Jaha also represent an interesting parallel to the Pharaoh and God relationship where God hardens Pharaoh’s heart and then allows greater and greater harm to happen because of the plagues. Jaha convinces Allie that she can supersede free will and, as a result,  Allie forces people to commit horrific actions. Allie’s first act after forcing Raven to submit, thus overriding free will,  is making Raven cut herself until she would have bled out which is a parallel to the first plague being God turning the Nile River, the life source of Egypt, to blood.

Also after Moses kills the slaver, he runs away just as Clarke after slaying the Mountain Men runs away because both Moses and Clarke are afraid of their power. Moses also encounters God in a burning bush just as Clarke reconnects with Bellamy, the man she has the most faith in, by Lincoln’s pyre where they both address their demons and become a team again (3×12). In addition there are several times throughout the story where the Israelites lose faith in God, just as the Delinquents lose faith in Bellamy (3×05-3×010) but Moses never loses faith in God just as Clarke despite hearing about Bellamy seemingly going off his rocker never loses faith in Bellamy (3×05).

 

Abby is a fangirl, writer and poet from California. You can contact her on tumblr at the-ships-to-rule-them-all.

TV Talk: The 100 3×12 – Demons

Erica:  Can we do a gushing episode recap kinda thing for The 100, please?
Abby:  YES
Erica:  OMG IT WAS AMAZING!!!  I was absolutely CONVINCED that Miller and Bryan were messing with Harper. CONVINCED!!!
Abby:   THE WHOLE “I’M GOING TO KICK MY BOYFRIEND’S ASS”
Erica:   YES!!!
Abby:  AND THE FACT THAT THE ARK HAS IT’S GHOST STORIES
Erica: They are so CUTE!
 
Abby:  BRILLIANT WORLDBUILDING
Erica:  Omg! I know!!!
Abby:  SO SO SO SO SO SO CUTE.  I love Harper + Briller, she ships them so much
Erica:  She does!
Abby:  And her scream, how does Chelesy produce such bone chilling things week after week???
Erica:  Oh, I know! You just know that girl has heard some tall tales. lol  But seriously, they should have been a foursome. :disappointed:  Briller and Harpoe.
Abby:  YES GOD THAT WOULD’VE BEEN SO GOOD
Emma Claire:  Late to the party but I LOVED that episode.  Those 3 lil munchkins at the start are my faves.  Also why can’t Murphy catch a damn break? I’m so hurt by Emori.
Erica:  I know! The ONLY reason I can think of for Emori to have taken the damn chip is because she found out her brother took it before he died and she could see him again.
Emma Claire:  That’s my best case scenario. Worst case is she was chipped all along…My poor lil Murph.
Erica:  Oh man. Wait, but her brother wasn’t until Jaha came along.
Emma Claire:  Oh, that’s true.  That makes me feel a bit better. Still sad about it, though. Murphy was so hurt. Wahhhh I’m so protective of him. lol who would’ve thought?!
Erica:  Definitely not me at the beginning of S1!!!  Hey, did you hear that The 100 has a new co-executive producer for S4?
 
Emma Claire:  No, I didnt! That bodes well, though, surely.
Erica:  I hope so!
Emma Claire:  Do you think Jasper is going to die? I really hope not, but it’s seeming more and more likely.
Erica:  I’m really hoping not.
Julie:   DO NOT LET JASPER DIE. Me and my mom love him so much!
Erica:  He’s finally able to see the pain of others and is trying to be there for them, too. I’m loving him. I really want him to stay.
Julie:  I seriously can’t wait till Netflix US has season 3! I need Jasper character development
Erica:  It’s gonna be such a long time before that happens.
Sara:  One of the drawbacks of Netflix is how long it takes them to update TV seasons.
Erica:That’s definitely one of the biggest drawbacks.
Julie:  We are getting the new seasons of Baby Daddy and Young and Hungry just a few weeks after the last episode aired. It all depends on the contract Netflix is able to get/how long they want DVD sales to be the only option.
Erica:  Unless you’re in Canada. Then Netflix has each new episode of The 100 uploaded at midnight PST every Friday. Something they do for Shadowhunters at midnight PST on Wednesdays. I love it!

Featured Fan: Layne Morgan from The 100 Fandom

Layne has been a fan of The 100 since the show’s first season. During the filming of season three, she was a writer’s PA. I came across this ask and answer on her Tumblr and thought it warranted putting her in the spotlight as a featured fan this week. Take a look at what she had to say and leave your thoughts in the comment section.
Anonymous asked: Why do people like you and Jason say that the show isn’t about ships but then promote/talk about Clexa and nothing else? We get it isn’t about ships or bellarke but it seems biased when you only care about Clexa and only get mad about shipping when it’s about bellarke.

I normally try not to answer questions like this for the sake of avoiding conflict and things like that but this one is polite and I think it’s something that honestly could use to be addressed or perhaps explained, in some ways, to the fan base so I’m going to do my best to do that.

The first thing I think it’s important to understand is that when someone says “the show isn’t about ships” or when Jason or someone else says they don’t like “shipping” they don’t mean that the show doesn’t have relationships or isn’t about romance or that the relationships it has aren’t important. “Shipping” on the internet is a great thing. People who enjoy relationships on shows make up some of the most passionate parts of the fan base, by far. As someone who has spent many years in tumblr fandom and as part of this culture and community, I understand what it means to really love a relationship on a show, whether that relationship is actually happening romantically, in the narrative or not.

It’s not a stretch to say that the 100 isn’t about romance. I think that’s something most viewers can agree on. That certainly isn’t to say that romance won’t happen or doesn’t happen and that relationships in general, romantic or platonic aren’t important to the story or the characters. They are. But there’s also a far larger story happening and much more going on in than just that, in such a way that the story can not cater specifically to those romantic plot lines. For example, an incredible moment between two characters, like Bellamy and Clarke, as leaders or even as enemies can happen in the show and be about survival or leadership or conflict and not be about romance. I think that’s what people mean when they say “this isn’t about romance” because often, looking for romantic subtext where it isn’t distracts from the true nature of the content.

Now, don’t get me wrong you are free to interpret a story however you want to. You are free to look at glances and conversations and take whatever you want from them. As a girl who has always appreciated and enjoyed femslash ships, I’m very, very used to watching something and enjoying a part of it that isn’t actually in the story. The problem here seems to come in understanding that what you like isn’t owed to you and may not be the writer’s intention and understanding that that’s okay. If a writer says “that’s not the story I’m writing or telling” they aren’t trying to belittle you. They aren’t trying to mock you or talk down to you or crush your hopes and dreams. They’re simply saying that your interpretation of it is merely your interpretation. Your freedom to interpret something, doesn’t obligate the author to your interpretation.

If you come at Jason and you’re talking about Bellamy and Clarke romantically, a lot it doesn’t seem like a stretch that he could begin to start saying “that’s really not what this is about” because that may be how he feels. And if you’re really begging they get together, that’s a wonderful thing and it’s great and passionate and incredible that the story allows you to find something like that in it but again, when Jason says “this isn’t about romance” it’s perhaps just a steering maneuver in the direction of what he’s writing there because when he does address Bellamy and Clarke, he likely means to address it in the non romantic way that their relationship has been thus far.

As for talking about and promoting relationships, again you have to look at what is part of the show. If Jason is talking about Clexa as a relationship, it’s because it’s part of the canon. It’s part of what he’s writing. It’s part of his story. Promoting a poll about Clexa doesn’t steer viewers away from the story that he’s trying to tell. You all have probably heard me talk over and over about Princess Mechanic. I love and adore the idea of their relationship. I also like the idea of Clarktavia and Lextavia and Kabby and many others. There’s a kind of us vs. them mentality that has started among the fandom where for some reason, viewers have put Clarke in this love triangle situation with Lexa and Bellamy that she isn’t actually in. Jason saying something about Clarke and Lexa isn’t a shot at Bellarke. It isn’t meant to insult Bellarke. It’s a part of the story he is telling. Promoting that story doesn’t mean he doesn’t love and appreciate that a part of his fan base likes something else. When he talks about Clexa, I don’t feel offended that he isn’t also talking abut Princess Mechanic. It’s just not part of his narrative, romantically and it’s not something he’s obligated to talk about if he doesn’t feel the need to at the moment.

I realize, in some ways this could sound a little bit harsh. I don’t mean to give the impression that I’m saying “this isn’t in the show, so it’s not important.” That isn’t what I’m saying even by a long shot. I am a huge supporter of crack ships. I’m a huge supporter of wanting to see romance in relationships that aren’t necessarily romantic and a huge believer that fandom and fanficition and shipping are fantastic parts of the television world. What I do mean to say, is that it’s important to understand that a showrunner or writer loves their story and is telling that story for a reason. You  may agree with it or disagree with it. You may like what they’re doing or want to see something else. You may have a little bit of both on different days and at different times. You’re entitled to that. Embrace that. Have fun with it. That’s incredible. But try your best to understand that what you like isn’t a war. If someone else doesn’t like it, they’re not trying to insult you. If someone else does like it and also likes something else, it isn’t a contest. There’s a way to love what you love, no matter what it is, without obligating other people to it.

I don’t blame Jason for blocking people who are always spewing to him about how what he’s writing is an abusive relationship or badgering him to show some kind of fairness or ‘unbias’ when, as harsh as it may sound, he doesn’t owe anyone a lack of bias toward his own story. He’s said before that his favorite relationship on the show is the current, platonic relationship between Bellamy and Clarke. He doesn’t undermine that relationship. It’s a huge, crucial, wonderful part of the story. What you see in it is what you see in it and you are allowed that. It’s a passionate part of fandom that brings a lot of love and attention to the show. I encourage you to do your best to keep it that way. Let it be something that gives you joy in its content and brings you joy in the fan content you create about it and don’t base your love for it on small nods of approval that you’re hoping for or on whether or not Jason talks about a different thing. If you love something, that sort of stuff doesn’t matter. You can continue to love it just as you have been. No one is going to take that from you. No one wants to.

Tirade Tuesday: When Fandom Throws a Hissy Fit

I have had it. I’m not very vocal in The 100 fandom. I mainly stay in my corner and post poetry, but I need to speak out. On twitter, William Shatner, Captain Kirk of Star Trek, a show that had the first interracial kiss on TV, is defending the 100 and getting attacked by a continent of Clexa fans. (x)

In the last month since Lexa’s Death, you [Clexa fans] have run the cast and the writers and Jason [Rothenberg, creator of The 100] off twitter. You have turned on the cast for them asking you to stick with their friends. I honestly wouldn’t be surprised if when Eliza [Taylor, who plays The 100’s main protagonist, Clarke Griffin] comes back and livetweets she gets horrible vitriol from you guys.

The amount of times I have seen stuff from your side of the fandom that has made me ill, that has made me want to cry, that has made me rant for hours is way too many. I have seen you saying that Bellarke shippers should die, that Clarke should die and Eliza should lose her job because she “hates” working on a show with some of her best friends where she is the lead and playing a complicated role. I have seen people I respect and adore get so much hate from some toxic members of the Clexa fandom that they’ve had panic attacks, they’ve stopped volunteering to write for sites they love, they have cried because you have told them that they are worthless.  I have seen rampant biphobia, antisemitism – the Hilter video really??? and racism.

Now many of you are justifiably angry about the timing of Lexa’s death and her sex scene with Clarke, about how the writers supported you on Twitter – they were excited about having Lexa, they loved her too which is something that many of you seem to have forgotten – about how Lexa’s death bears a lot of similarities to the way lesbians have been killed before. And many of you have dropped the show. Many of you went into it for Lexa and you left with Lexa, and that is fine. I’ve dropped shows before, sometimes just because they stopped interesting me, and that’s fine, too. You shouldn’t have to spill your past to explain why you’re dropping a show. Some of you are amazing people and you ship and let ship, but unfortunately, the assholes in your fandom are loud.

Similarly, I and others like me shouldn’t have to feel guilty for sticking with a show that we love, that has characters that represent us and matter to us. Television exists to make us feel, and The 100 exists to make us think and make us look at the world in different ways and realize there are no good guys in this world or in the world of The 100. We are all just trying to live our lives.

By trying to cancel the show you are saying that the representation it provides for other people does not matter. Many of you loved Lexa because she was a leader, because she was not defined by her sexuality, because she was powerful and most importantly because she gave you hope for a better world. Now, I am bisexual and Clarke is representation unlike any other on television. Clarke’s bisexuality is introduced mid season two, which means that we will get to watch her fall in love/lust with both women and men, something that is so rare on television. Her bisexuality is just another reason why people love Clarke Griffin and her bisexuality being treated as normal gives me hope that one day I won’t have to choose which community to belong to.

Raven Reyes is an incredible character. I almost always bring her up when I talk about The 100 and what the show does well. Why is that? Because I am disabled and Raven fails and struggles and she gets back up in a way I have never seen on television; in a way that represents the pain that people with Chronic Pain and with disabilities deal with every day. Raven Reyes is intelligent, powerful, loving, longing, brave and badass and she’s also disabled. When I feel like I want to give up, when not being able to be normal gets to be too much, I look to Raven. I look to her power, to her strength, to the way she never gives up, and I am inspired to try again. Raven Reyes empowers me unlike any other character on television.

Do I deserve to lose that? Do others who relate to Bellamy’s role as leader and PoC (people of color) deserve to lose him? Do those that relate to Kane’s learning deserve to lose an example of how sometimes mistakes are needed? Do people who relate to Octavia’s struggle to belong deserve to lose watching her struggle to find her place? Do people who relate to Abby’s role as a mother deserve to lose seeing her find balance between letting your child go and loving them?

You saying that we deserve to lose this show, these characters, these relationships because a guest star who happened to play a badass lesbian commander died. That is utterly unfair and wrong.

When did lesbians become the gatekeepers of representation?  When did lesbians become the gatekeepers of LGBTQ+ representation? When did lesbians become the gatekeepers of disabled representation?

Lexa died because she wanted to change the system. She died because she believed in the idea that “Blood Must Not Have Blood”. Ask yourselves if canceling the show is something your idol would support. I don’t think she would. People are human. They do not have the knowledge and experiences of every other person who walked the earth, and they make mistakes.

HOW DARE YOU SAY THAT MINORITIES MATTER WHEN YOU ARE TRYING TO TAKE AWAY OUR REPRESENTATION. HOW DARE YOU SAY THAT LGBTQ+ DESERVES BETTER WHEN YOU ADVOCATE FOR THE MOST PROMINENT BISEXUAL CHARACTER TO BE KILLED OFF!!
HOW DARE YOU TELL ME THAT I DON’T MATTER AS MUCH A DEAD FICTIONAL CHARACTER!